Sometimes I honestly wonder about myself.
I was on the way to the 5:00pm service of church Sunday night and as the bus ride had taken slightly longer than I had accounted for, I was in a bit of a rush.
Thankfully I wasn’t running late to the service, but I had told a friend I would meet her at 4:30. So, at 4:34 I am just turning down the street the church is on.
My boots had rubbed my heels raw, and I just wanted to get to Heart Church so I could sit down and be in my favorite place with some of my favorite people.
So, as I’m walking I randomly decide to cross the street and walk on the other side. Why? I have no earthly idea.
As I made my way along the sidewalk, I remembered that a portion of the road was closed for construction and that the pavement would run out.
Thus marks my second crossing.
Somewhere in my subconscious I decided that it would be a good idea for me to cross back again only to recall that I had told my friend I was meeting her at the coffee shop. The coffee shop that was across from the church.
Fourth time’s the charm.
To any casual passerby, I probably looked a) intoxicated, b) lost, or c) both. I promise that appearing to be either of those two things had not been my intention.
I was in a rush, and to be honest, my mind was in a thousand different places. I wasn’t even really thinking about or paying attention to what was going on around me. (Sorry, Mom and Dad!)
Have you found yourself in a similar situation as a Christian? Are you weaving back and forth between living the way God has called you to and how you want to? Have you become so distracted by your own personal life that you have actually deafened yourself to God’s instructions?
In Scripture, we see where Jesus says to the church of Laodicea “I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot; I wish that you were cold or hot. So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.” (Revelation 3:15-16).
Just like we don’t want a romantic, (or platonic) relationship with someone who can’t seem to make up their minds how they feel about you, Jesus doesn’t want us to keep swerving back and forth from loving Him to ignoring Him.
Tomorrow is not guaranteed, friends, and we do not need to wait for tomorrow what we can decide today.
In 1 Corinthians 16:13 Paul urges the church to “Be on the alert, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong.”
The love of Christ is free for all, and He will never force His grace upon you; however, speaking from experience, once you really enter into relationship with Jesus, straying is much more difficult than staying.
Now that isn’t to say that we as Christians won’t make mistakes. We are still human, and we will still fail.
But, when you have your eyes and heart fixed on Jesus, being unstable and capricious in your walk is a lot more difficult.
My challenge to us today is that we pray for God to reveal what parts of our lives we need to place back in His hands and that He will provide us the strength to walk in His ways without swaying back into our old habits.