On Tuesday, the head cold that I’ve been battling decided it wanted to rob me of an entire night’s sleep. Now, as a girl who truly values and appreciates sleep, to be unable to do so is a form of pure torture.
I had taken night-time medicine an hour or so before falling asleep around 12:30, but at 2:40 I found myself wide awake and unable to relax even the slightest.
So, while I had planned for my night to be full of rest like any other night, my body had a very different idea of how my time might be spent.
Through this experience, the Lord’s truth presented in Proverbs 16:9 made all the more sense. “The mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.”
In other words, I can plan my future until I am blue in the face, but ultimately God’s will will prevail.
If I am being honest, I have control issues. Not in the sense that I thrive off of bossing people around, but that when it comes to relinquishing a certain aspect of my life to God, my flesh fights with an almighty passion.
What my control issue boils down to is a lack of faith in God’s ability to love and care for me. So when I try to figure a situation out on my own and subtract God from the equation, I am communicating the message that my plan is wiser than the Creator’s.
In Matthew 7:11, Jesus poses the thought that “If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!”
God’s intention isn’t to conceal the future from us, but rather for us to know just enough to take the next step of faith with Him.
Let me be vulnerable for a moment. If you were to ask me what I want most in this world in addition a strong and growing relationship with Jesus, I would say with full assurance…a husband. A man of God who I could respect, love, and serve for the rest of my days on this earth. The Lord sees my heart, and He knows better than anyone else how deep a desire this is for me.
As much as I think I’d like to know who, when, and where, I find reassurance in the truth that God, the Author of my story and the Creator of my being, is directing my steps. I don’t have the outline of what my future will look like, but I do know that Jehovah is in control and that His ways are far higher than my own.
No matter what your particular situation is, whether it be a loved one come to know Jesus, or an illness that you want to be healed, all God asks of us is that we walk in faith. We could worry over the circumstances we are handed until we are stressed beyond comprehension, or we could give it all back to the One who knows how many hairs are on our heads.
Even so, I think that all of us can agree that walking in faith is extremely uncomfortable. Why? Because if we are honest with ourselves yet again we can acknowledge and accept the fact that we like to know what is around the next bend. We like to have our beds made and things organized before we set out on God’s mission. But God’s plans may often rouse us from our comfort zones into unfamiliar territory because it is in the unknown that we are best able to hear the voice of God.
When we don’t know what’s ahead we must fully rely on His guidance and leadership.
I encourage you to not waste your time striving for control over every circumstance in your life, but to use these moments as opportunities to delve into the Word and to learn from the Lord. He is a willing teacher, but you must be a student willing to leave the comfort of your bed no matter what the hour.