Last week, we were given the task of choosing our dissertation topic and sending our course leader a brief proposal of what our plans would look like.
I’ve been playing with an idea for almost a year now and I felt this particular piece of Young Adult Fiction would prove to be both challenging and rewarding for me.
Tuesday night at lecture, my dissertation supervisor told me about how often we would be meeting to discuss progress and what he was expecting from and before these meetings.
For those who may not know, writing is an extremely intimate thing for authors. Each time we type a word or put a pen to the page, we are revealing a piece of ourselves. We are opening ourselves to critique, to judgement. This is a very vulnerable and humbling position to be in.
A Masters Dissertation is quite an intimidating thing on its own, but add that personal factor and you reach an entirely new tier of anxiety. It’s like the narrow strip of a hiking trail that you have to conquer before you reach the mountain top. The venture is frightening, but the reward is far greater.
Romans 8:25 declares “But if we hope for what we do not see, with perseverance we wait eagerly for it.”
While I already have an idea of where I would like for the story to go, all authors will agree with me in saying the story takes on its own form and writes itself in a way we had never imagined it would go. And guess what? It’s even better than what we had originally planned!
Writing is a process, a continual learning and developing of the individual and the art.
So is waiting on the Lord.
We have an image of what we think should happen and when it should happen, but God has a plan all of His own. His ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts greater than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9).
More often than not, we just want to receive the finished product. We want the breakthrough without the battle, the spouse without the struggle, the healing without the heartache, the dissertation without the difficulties.
But that’s why I meet with my supervisor frequently. He is there to help guide and direct me, to offer insight on my writing that I wouldn’t be able to see on my own. There will be days where I feel as though I am the most rubbish writer out there and when throwing in the towel seems easier than pushing through, but we are called to hope with expectation and perseverance.
God is honored when we look to Him with a heart of humble trust and hope in His plans. Remember, God alone is good. That means His plans alone are good. So when we hand Him the keys to drive our life how He sees fit, we are opening ourselves to countless beautiful opportunities.
Allow the wait to be a refining process, a time in which you mature in your faith and hope. There are lessons still to be learnt and skills to be taught. Endure and embrace this season of waiting with an everlasting hope in the Lord our God.