It was nearing ten at night, and I was walking the length of my room.
Back and forth. Back and forth.
I was pacing, leaving an invisible trail of overlapping footsteps.
I couldn’t sit down and pray. I couldn’t even get on my knees. I had to walk around.
At first, I felt like a caged lion, treading the perimeters of his steel confinement. But then it began to feel more natural as I cared less about how I looked and more about what was going on in the spiritual realm.
I’d hit the breaking point and was at my wit’s end. There was no way I could keep doing this. I needed the strength and divine help of God.
You see, I’ve been praying and believing for something for a long time. The Lord had given me signs of confirmation, different things here and there to prove to me He had a plan. That everything was in His capable hands.
And already I’d begun to stress myself out over the situation again.
But last night, I’d had enough.
Praying and pacing, I spoke with my heavenly Father. I told Him my heart and asked for His will to be done.
And then words weren’t enough. How could I express this desire of my soul in mere words? How could I convey to God the depth and breadth of what He had put on my heart?
Romans 8:26 tells us “In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness;” Without a doubt I was feeling weak last night. The Lord has placed on my heart this unquenchable desire, and when it doesn’t happen week after week I feel sapped of energy and hope.
But the rest of the verse goes on to say “for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words”.
Did you get that?
When we admit we don’t know what to say, when we confess we aren’t strong enough to bear the burden on our own we liberate ourselves to having the Holy Spirit speak on our behalf!
The Holy Spirit speaks to God for us.
What an incredible truth.
Today I want to remind you that you don’t have to have it all together. You don’t have to have the answers or the words. You just have to have the heart.
God only asks that you share, and He will do the rest.
He cares for you with an almighty love, and He will never leave nor forsake you.
We can trust in Him always. Not just yesterday and not just today or tomorrow. But every single day.
He isn’t a distant God. He sent the Holy Spirit to reside in us and speak for us. If we would only humble ourselves to admitting that we need His touch.