Yesterday was emotionally stressful. I went to bed feeling absolutely drained. Granted the day ended well, but I was still spent.
Today was mentally tiring.
After I had spoken with God to help sort out my yesterday, I spent today in it’s entirety wondering about the future in relation to that particular situation. I dwelt on it. I mused on it. I couldn’t stop thinking about it.
Then, a question I was asked about the situation came back to the forefront of my mind: “Do you have a peace? Have you asked God for His peace?”
The answer was an immediate and resounding, “No.”
I think it is possible to speak to God on a situation while still keeping our hands firmly grasped on the steering wheel. Sure, we are letting God navigate our lives, but we are there to help in case He needs us.
In case the sovereign Lord of the universe needs our help. Really?
But this is what we tell ourselves.
I want God’s will in the situation more than anything, but my actively trying to figure out the play-by-play is me trying to perform as God. Note to self: I am not God, and I cannot handle all the knowledge. It would be far too great for me.
And sometimes we can feel like we are alone in the waiting process. Sure, we have a select few people we are comfortable sharing some of the information with, but the rest of it just sits on our hearts.
We feel isolated on an island with this issue.
We’ve prayed, and we don’t immediately hear from God. He may seem far, but He never is. You see, I want to remind you (and me) that the Holy Spirit abides in us. One-third of the triune God abides in us.
Like I mentioned in yesterday’s devotional, The Holy Spirit petitions the throne of God when we are at a loss for words. He knows us that intimately. He knows the cries and desires of our hearts. The Holy Spirit, our help and our hope.
Present and powerful.
Jesus is encouraging His disciples about His leaving, saying: “Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.”
We have unlimited access to the peace of Jesus Christ. Through the Holy Spirit we are given the keys to immeasurable and unfathomable peace. Not the flighty or temporal peace of the world. No, the permanent and powerful peace of God Almighty.
So, do not let your heart be troubled. Nor let it be fearful. Trust in God, and ask for His peace. He won’t ever force it upon you, but He desires to have a trusting relationship with you. And the only way that can happen is if we communicate with Him.
Don’t be afraid to share your desires with Him. Don’t be afraid to be the most raw and organic form of you. He made you! He created you in His image. He longs to hear from you.
Even as I write this I am praying for the peace of God. Freedom from the disturbance of my not understanding and my fears.
But like joy, peace is a choice.
The Holy Spirit can and will give you access to a mighty peace and freedom, but it is our choice whether we abide in it or not.
Today, let’s choose to abide in His peace, to not live our lives in fear or worry. Let’s choose to walk in faith and not by sight, remembering our God sees the whole picture whilst we catch only the tiniest of glimpses of what He is doing.