I can remember the second semester of my junior year at North Greenville like it was yesterday. Knowing applications for graduate school would be due in early fall, I was diligently looking into one particular university.
Already I had convinced my parents to take me to at least two visitation days, and I’d been in correspondence with one the representatives.
By April, I was certain this was where I’d be attending the next school year. Still within close distance of my Alma Mater and my hometown, I would be able to visit my friends and family on the weekends without any problem.
It seemed perfect.
Except I wasn’t praying about the situation like I should’ve. I assumed that since I had studied a particular subject in my undergraduate career that obviously God would want me to study that in my postgraduate. Instead of praying and truly seeking God’s counsel, I went with what I felt was right. What seemed to make the most sense to me.
But it would’ve been entirely wrong. Like I’ve said before in previous devotionals, the idea was good, but it wasn’t God. There’s a huge, life-changing difference between the two. One leads you on a path that is acceptable in the eyes of the world and requires little to no faith on your part. The other–God–requires you to abandon the reason of this world and to follow wherever He calls you.
I was on the brink of settling my God-calling for a good-calling. As Christians I think our lack of faith in God often brings us to this crossroad.
When Jesus talks about the Kingdom of Heaven to His disciples, He says
Enter through the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is broad that leads to destruction, and there are many who enter through it. For the gate is small and the way is narrow that leads to life, and there are few who find it.
The wide path, the path that looks like it has less obstacles and more tread, is the one that leads to destruction. The narrow path, the one that is difficult to trek and less traveled, is the one that leads to life.
The same concept can be applied to our walks with the Lord. Often times we put our friends’ opinions, our family’s expectations, or our own finances above what the Lord is calling us to. We put our faith in fragile, finite people, and then we are frustrated when we hit a roadblock we hadn’t been expecting.
Proverbs 14:12 tells us “There is a way which seems right to a man, but its end is the way of death.”
While our decision to choose a good-situation over a God-sized calling might not lead to our physical death, it does lead us down a path of spiritual battle because of our disobedience.
If you’re reading this today and you’re thinking “How am I supposed to know what God even wants me to do?” I want to point you back to James 1:5 which says “But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.”
God isn’t trying to hide His plan for your life from you, but it does require some effort on your part. Are you spending time with Him? Are you seeking His voice or are you so busy unloading all your stresses on Him that you don’t even listen to Him? He wants to speak to you. He wants to teach you His ways, but we have got to get into communion with Him.
When I finally sought God about my postgraduate career, the Lord made His plan abundantly clear. Now, I find myself in England about to finish my Masters. It was definitely a leap of faith moving to a new country, but when the Lord calls you to something we must have the faith that He will bring it to pass if we are walking in obedience. Have faith, and follow Him.